To kick off launching The Femme Edition, we knew we just had to have a catch up with the one, the only, Cammie Scott. If you aren’t aware, Cammie is an influencer with nearly half a million followers on instagram, 400k on Youtube and has just launched her new podcast. We can testify that Cammie is just as sweet IRL as she is online. So let’s see how life, and COVID-19, has been treating her.
Hi lovely! We last saw each other in Palm Springs, California in 2016! Think it’s safe to say your life has changed quite a bit since then? What’s been the biggest change for you?
Oh wow, 2016 was a pretty big year of change for me and it hasn’t really slowed down since. What’s changed most since then is just my journey of coming into my own. I think after I went through coming out and moving across the country, I thought I knew who I was and who I wanted to be but little 25 year old me was so wrong.
We love to see that growth! Congratulations on launching your podcast! What inspired you to start your own?
Thank you! The idea of a podcast started as just wanting a new modality to create on. My favorite Youtube videos were always the ones where I just had a conversation to the camera but with just me in it… it was a pretty long, boring monologue in my opinion. I also didn’t want to just start a podcast to have a podcast. After about a year of brainstorming different ideas I landed on Uneducated. After pitching to a few production companies we signed in January of 2020 and then, well, we all know what happened next. Covid halted production and I didn’t have plans to move forward until I could get back in the studio safely. After the murder of George Floyd and waking up myself to the injustices of this country and the world I decided there was no better time than now to focus my efforts on amplifying others voices and educated myself and my listeners on topics we tend to shy away from.
Sounds like your podcast is just what we all need right now. What’s been your favourite topic or most interesting guest(s) so far?
Picking a favorite is so difficult because each one is so different. The most recent episode with Arrows was the most fulfilling personally. We had an hour call prior to recording to catch up and our conversations left me feeling so inspired and powerful! There are just certain people in life you come across who you know are making you better, Arrows is absolutely one of those people for me.
We’re definitely going to have to check that episode out! How’s covid and lockdown been treating you? What advice do you have for others who are struggling with anxiety during these uncertain times? Are there any positives you have taken from quarantine time?
I can feel that this year is one of those transformative times that is so painful to go through but in hindsight will be essential to growth and positive change. I think keeping that mindset is all that is getting me through it! I guess my advice is to just allow the process to happen and embrace the change.
If you sit within yourself it can be uncomfortable at first but if you can break through the discomfort you reach a really incredible place of self discovery.
You might find corners you love and others you really dislike. I’ve started therapy and have really dove head first into having better self awareness so that I can be who I truly want to be.
This year has definitely been transformative for a lot of people, especially around self-discovery. Now, let’s go back to the beginning, and chat GIRLS! When did you know that you liked girls? Did you struggle to accept your sexual orientation?
I think any queer person can relate to having the in the moment awareness and the hindsight awareness. Looking back, it was pretty clear I liked girls since I was about 5 (and my mom agrees). In the moment I didn’t realize until about a year or so into dating my first girlfriend, which yes I know sounds ridiculous. I remember we would always say we were straight and we were just each other’s “exception.”
One day while staying home from school sick I saw a show called “South Of Nowhere” and instantly it clicked, I’m gay! That feeling was honestly relieving rather than scary but the next 4 or so years were a struggle of finding my confidence in myself to be able to show the world who I was.
We think a lot of girls will certainly relate to that! Did you always know that femme lesbians existed? That you could be gay AND feminine? For us we certainly felt like the only femme in the world!
My gosh no not at all, which is exactly why it took me so long to figure myself out and feel comfortable. The only representation I saw were people like Ellen, and I remember crying one day thinking I had to cut my hair or stop wearing dresses! It gave me a whole identity crisis and terrified me. Looking back, I think that’s what led me to sharing my story on Tumblr. I was hoping by putting myself out there, I would find other people similar to myself.
Oh the good old tumblr days! We’re glad you put yourself out there as you have no doubt helped so many along the way. You seem so loved up with Taryn, congrats! You addressed being a ‘serial dater’, do you think that every relationship has led you to where you’re meant to be?
Thank you, she’s pretty incredible I know 🙂 I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about this actually. (Probably thanks to therapy!) I don’t think there is anything wrong with being in relationships more often than being single and I also think you can grow and change and become a better person in a relationship if you are actively working on yourself and not using the relationship as a crutch. I have absolutely used relationships at points to distract or to get over certain pain. There is just no point in being hard on yourself for past decisions, all you can do is learn from it so you don’t repeat the past. Everything that has happened in my life has led me to where and who I am and I’m pretty happy about that.
We love that and it’s great to see you so happy. On a completely different note, we both suffer from PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder), which we know how bad it can be. For those who may not know, can you give a quick run down?
It’s the f*cking worst! But it sucks more when you have no idea what is going on. Basically, PMDD is like intense PMS. For me, it is a wave of depression the week before my period starts. I feel extremely worthless and irritable, I don’t want to get out of bed which makes me feel lazy which then triggers my anxiety. Recognizing this pattern has helped me take control of it. I am not on medication for it yet but many people have found success in taking a small dose of antidepressants that week leading up to their period.
There’s definitely a lot more awareness that needs to happen around PMDD and the more we share, hopefully the more others can recognize it in themselves and to realize what’s going on.
Let’s head into a couple quick fire questions:
What’s your top 5 makeup and beauty products that you couldn’t live without?
Lip balm, pre cleanser, lactic acid serum, oils…can you tell I prefer skincare over makeup? Haha I guess I’ll add one makeup product, eyebrow gel!
Fav outfits for Fall/ Winter?
Faux leather has been really popular the last year or so and it’s a trend I can absolutely get behind. I love layering so fall/winter fits are always my favorites. My go-to outfit lately is any monochromatic look.
Finally… what would your advice be for those struggling to accept their sexual orientation?
I think it’s beyond sexuality and more about accepting all of yourself. Go to therapy, keep a journal, get to know yourself. Be who you want to be for you and not for anyone else. Once you like who that person is, you stop caring if anyone else likes them.
That’s great advice! Thanks so much for talking to us Cammie, it was a pleasure!
Thank you both!! xx
M & W xo